Woke up quite late today..finally after waking up early to attend the SNCO course days for the past weekend. After stretching abit,went to wash up and sit at the sofa. After a while,i went to play with the computer...once i got online..i got a stomachache..so i went to the toilet. Then when i come back to the computer..i saw ling's msg..
she then tell me tat there is some error or mistake done during the jnco camp briefing day..it is the groupings.Talk over the matter for quite some time b4 coming to a conclusion.Then i quickly change and went out to lavender mrt ctrl..suppose to meet huiying,chuiyee,kayee,meiting,ahmad,wenmei,keeleong and ben. They wanted to buy the things for OTC camp lor..so then when i reach there..only saw chuiyee sitting at the corner..then kayee came. Followed by huiying and meiting. I then went to the SIR building to take photo as the rest still waiting for Ben who is late. Then when i am done..everyone was up at the traffic light near the SIR building..end up they waiting for me..
Then we all walk to the army market...then when we reach the place..they wanted to buy the backpack but the normal shop is close..
then they proceed to the shop selling the normal things for camps..then they start to go thru the item list..
then start ordering one by one..the items..ask ard how ppl need the different items..
Okie lor..i admit that i am abit disorientated today..so got to think abit b4 buying the things..still no need to hurry me and make as though i am indecisive lor..kinda offended when one of them say sumting but i dun wish to elaborate on tat.. so i pass some money to ahmad to help me pay up watever they bought for me..so guess wat..i suppose to get 1 insect repellent,1 groundsheet and 1 solid fuel..i only end up getting the solid fuel..but i dun mind..expected de..So i go over another shop..my corps supplier to buy my tings..got the things i need..then i join the rest of them..then they goin the corner shop to buy a backpack..so followed them..at first i wanted to buy it but i tink i wan wait till i got my salary.
They bought the deuter backpack..all the same type only different colors..
Then it was raining heavily...went down to join kl n wm at the 2nd level b4 proceeding to go home..
Ahmad had left earlier for some reason lor...so then thru out the whole journey back to the mrt station..i dun tok much..dun wish to say anything..i just feel so terrible..like wanted to break down..maybe i got alot of things on my mind..jnco..snco and nw otc..and addition to tat ..got agitated by one of them there..so better keep quiet..dun wan to spoil some1's day just because of how i feel..who am i anyway? so keep quiet is the best thing but everything i did tis..i will get a terrible headache..
the journey on the mrt is quite a long onez especially u r alone...think about alot of things..feel like doing alot of stupid things..what have become of me..maybe i took wat the person said today too seriously even it might just b a casual remark..mayb he said it at the wrong time. Just hope i could get over it b4 the camp if not it will be a terrible thing especially when we r in the same team. Do not wish to spoil our friendship lor..haizz..
Chuiyee ask me why i am quiet..but i dun wish to say anything..cause when i am angry..i am not me..i dun care bout anything as long i get to the things tat make me unhappy across to the other person but it wud be a terrible thing to happen lor.
Then i got home..rest a while..and then saw ling online..tok to her abit about jnco n snco...then also see mei nu online...ask her bout her lesson plan..she very funny de..lolz..poor her..been in front of her computer since afternoon till nw..she need a massage but too bad she lives too far away..haha!..talking to her..brighten abit of my day..haha.. I beginning to 4get bout the whole matter today..haizz..let just forgive and forget..dun hold on to grudge..no use de. Why am i not the old cheerful fai..where did tis feeling in me went to?
I am asking this thing to myself..when will the people in the north and the east could be able to communicate well or carry an activity effectively..i am waiting for this day..nothing is impossible..i had prove it abit but hard to maintain it...however will try even how hard it is.
I hoping the best for everyone who know me..regardless where they are and what they do..

Thank you guys...


9th of Nov 03...suppose to be my sis's birthday.What a happy occasion every year BUT today gonna be different. I will not be home for dinner..and why?..becos of OTC..St John!St John!St John!..been in this "political" organisation for about 6 years liao..sweat thru the cadet's life till where I am today. Still a cadet though..been happy these years serving the public but however,my moral is down these few months..feel like leaving.Yesterday,I attend a BBQ organised by PHS..it was an enjoyable event for the corps..althought they had only roughly half of my corps strength but still they are close to each other. Can mix ard among themself. But why can't Tampines?..for pride and power..we shall fight and condemn?It is really a sad thing to see..we maybe improving but in the process,just how many ppl are hurt or humiliated to achieve that?Gerald..one of my std3 got his pouch stolen..i am really touched to see ying,eve and a few of them showing their concern..ask ard and help him find for it.Really appreciate their help..Ying blame herself for being unlucky but I believe that is not the case..it just 2 different issue. Anyway had a great time yesterday..Waiting for the day that my Corps could get together as a big grp and have fun together regardless rank and age.Maybe in the future..I am left alone to face the challenges..I am helpless. Going out in a few hrs time..to HQ..haizz..will update again tonite